Welcome to Litsy!

I‘ve been lost for so long
Please gods forgive me for what I‘ve become
Nothings going to come to save me
I‘m searching for a little joy in my lonely soul

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#findingjoy

1) Yes, 483 books. Mostly curated. I don‘t have a lot of space plus I‘m old and the font from an e-reader is often easier on the eyes.

2) The Magnetic Fields.

#Two4Tuesdays @TheSpineView
#Theyarescreaming
#wereallscreaming
#Dontscreamalone

Not well.

#mentalhealthmonday @Kerrbearlib

Isn‘t it strange how so many words in a conversation can say so little? gods how I long for a meaningful conversation. I‘m surrounded by people but feel so lonely. I feel as I‘ve been sad so long that I‘m addicted to feeling that way. There‘s a comfort in it. But fuck Im trying, and I‘ll keep on trying.

#findingjoy
#pillfreenopsychotropicsforme

1) Not well. Tomorrow can be better though.
2) They‘re as phony as the orange Cheeto.

#ThewholethingIthinkitssick @Kerrbearlib
#Mentalhealthmonday

Abridged books!!! Who the fuck buys these? It‘s literary vandalism!!! People say it‘s for kids, let kids read the whole thing. Abridged books feel like someone chewed your meal for you and handed it back — it might technically be “digestible,” but the soul of it is gone. They‘re like fucking cliff notes in my opinion. Only one authors work should be abridged and thats Dickens.

@BookmarkTavern #SundayFunday #friendsdontletfriendsreadDickens

I finally got one!! I‘ve been tagging this book since 2018 (for those that don‘t know my name is George). It‘s been out of print since 2019 since it‘s from a small independent author. It cost a bit for what it is but I finally found a used copy. I got it from Abe‘s books. Seems interesting too. @Yuki_Onna

I took this photo in 2017 at the height of my mental health struggles and significant depression. Appearances are meaningless. Everyone wants to present themselves in a way that often conflicts with how they actually feel inside. I‘ve been off medication for almost one year (except for anxiety). For the first time in my life I feel like there might be a grain of truth to what many people have said & that I dismissed. It can get better.

I want to feel like more
More than this routine
Than this loneliness that hums beneath everything.
I want to feel like I was meant—

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God the nights stretch endlessly, filled with thoughts. The thoughts don‘t stop. It feels like having different conversations at the same time. I speak over myself. I hear jumbled words. Incoherent phrases. Hope is a stranger. My thoughts at time are unbearable. Tonight is such a night. I hope you all have a kind night.

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They want silence more than freedom.
Not your chains, just your quiet.
Not your heart, just your hush.
They fear your voice like thunder,
Because truth breaks more than glass.

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#ThewholethingIthinkitssick
#poetrymatters
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I feel that this has given me the most incredible and wonderful thing that I have ever been given, and also, the worst. It's a mixed bag. I have been taken to the to the depths of extreme terror by this. I've had my whole soul undermined by it, on the one hand. On the other hand in one sense, my experience has been about finding joy.

I don't know if it's worth it anymore

It's sad to see
Lonely, all this lonely

Thirteen pages in an hour
Can't read or concentrate
Another med change
I want another path
Any other path

Thank you for the tag @StillLookingForCarmenSanDiego @Alwaysbeenaloverofbooks #sundaysoapbox

I have 5 books that I always recommend and an author that I tell people to stay away from

1) The Catcher in the Rye
2) A confession Lev Tolstoy
3) Letters to a young poet by Rainer Maria Rilke
4) Darkness Visible by William Styron
5) The myth of Sisyphus by Camu

And you know who to stay away from.

I tag @readordierachel @FlowerFairy @jdiehr @Yuki_Onna

All we know is that stars will fall
And holidays will come and go

Look, it's a body, floating into the land
Now it's a body swimming out into the water
Now it's the land itself, here, that is a body;
A body of land
It's the water itself that's a body of water

And if I've done something,
You have to let me go
Think of me as someone,
Someone that you know
But if I don't hear something,
Pretty soon from now
I'll disconnect completely,
See how that works out

I'd rather be anybody but me sometimes
But know in your tragedy, feels kind of fade sometimes
I long to decompose, lay down and flowers grow
More than I ever did in life
I long to waste away, drag out and turn away
Sometimes

1) Visit my parents, cousin, and uncle then stay home.
2) Vonnegut, Jens Peter Jacobson, Salinger
3) A pillow of numb eggs

#wonderouswednesday @eggs thanks for the tag @Eggbeater I tag @ItsAnotherJen @tracey38 @Yuki_Onna

I want to know you
Even in the little ways
Places I will never find

But I think I've seen you
When I close my eyes to pray
Maybe in some other life

March on my brother
Go that little bit further

Always feeling tired, smiling when required
Write another year off and kindly resign

The whole thing I think is sick

I'll be fine
I'm completely and utterly fine
I am fine
I've always been fine
I'm fine

If I ever lose my battle with depression
Know that I fought
Know that I tried

I'd like to join #BFC @wanderinglynn

I'd like to read 2 books
I'd like to take my meds as prescribed
I'd like to continue to exercise 3 times a week

Thanks

I'd rather be anybody, but me, sometimes
But know in your tragedy feels kind of fade, Sometimes
I long to decompose
Breakdown and flowers grow
More than I ever did in life

When I first joined Litsy, I thought it was a wonderful place to make new friends and talk about books. Now I know it is neither. Litsy is apparently a place where someone can attack you without rhyme or reason except to start a popularity contest or a political debate. Litsy is apparently a place where someone can defame and slander your character and the powers that be do nothing but sit idly by.
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Hey @trashcanman this is for you.

1. Books, couch and TV
2. Lake Michigan in chicago and a few months ago. It's not the same. I hate it when people say “lets go to the beach“ and they mean the lake “beaches“. I grew up on islands, IT IS NOT THE SAME THING! I miss beaches.
3=. No. I was sick Friday, had to run a fundraiser that no one showed up to Saturday and vegged Sunday.

#thoughfulthursday

@Trashcanman Need more info for the ol' dossier, do ya? 😂

1. Selling my house and moving to a new state
2. Probably, but I'm up to my eyeballs in home rejuvenation projects
3. Ice cream sandwich
4. 100, I think
5. Tag! you're it