Really enjoying the tagged book. It is an engaging, illuminating and detailed read. I highly recommend it. Have a great day everyone, make a stranger smile.

Evil S I yes to find a shore,
A beast that doesn't quiver anymore,
Where we can crush some plants to paint my walls,
And I won't try to fight in the weekend wars
Was I? I was to lazy to bathe
Or paint or write or try to make a change

I don't mind Mondays. Ever since I got a new job 7 months ago I don't dry heave the day before. Hope everyone has a great week. Remember you're worthwhile. 🤗🤗🤗

Finished my meal prep for the week and now starting act 5 0f the tempest with one of my all time favorite movies in the whole wide Universe playing. Today has been a great day. @Graywacke @merelybookish #shakespearereadalong

At Los Angeles comic con and shit I'm tired. I saw a bunch of cool panels, the office, Steven Universe, Sponge Bob, and Rhett and Link. The one about the Joker and mental illness made me depressed, I don't think I can watch the Joker movie. Just the trailer made me feel unwell still had fun with the family though and got a shit ton of steps in #bfcr4 @AprilMae @guinsgirlreads @ChasingOm

Kids schools are shut down, colleges closed. I can't believe I never asked this before but are there any other L.A littens? Hope you're safe. Going to go indoors and read.

Has anyone out there read this? Or all six?

The warmth of your love
Is like the warmth of the sun
And this will be our year
Took a long time to come

Don't let go of my hand
Now darkness has gone
And this will be our year
Took a long time to come

And I won't forget
The way you held me up when I was down
And I won't forget the way you said,
"Darling I love you"
You gave me faith to go on

Now we're there and we've only just begun
This will be our year
Took a long time to come

C.B

Fitness fail. Was asked if I was starting a new trend or if I'm a lumberjack. Lol. Left my workout sneakers at home is all. Still got my workout in. Hope my team is doing well and everyone else too #bfcr4 @AprilMae @guinsgirlreads @ChasingOm @wanderinglynn

A dying Ripple

What I desire Is stillness,
An absence of regret
An absence of shame
No fear of the future
A respite from pain
Perfect stillness

TCM

Atop this podium built of fixation
They like to choke
All utensils are fixed on you

Cranes perched in scows, in the windows they would peek
Pacifier pacifies
Snuck inside the sound of sleep

Everyone knows
The secretest code of mine
They'll tell all my friends and
They'll tell all my enemies too

@chasingtheom @aprilmae @guinsgirlreads @wanderinglynn #bfcr4

Time to go to the gym. Have a great day team and all littens as well.

#happyoctober #betterlivingthroughchemistry

I'm on more psychotropic drugs than ever but fuck if I care these past few weeks have been pleasurable. When you have clarity of thought, when you can focus on the sound of birds or the wind blowing through the trees or the sound of every day life without your own voice telling yourself to kill yourself dozens of times a day I'll chalk it up as a win. I feel like I'm on vacation from myself.

This could last us all a lifetime
Limbs intact, untouched
On the screen of a video tape
Confined to bedposts
We wait as lepers
Upheld at knife's reach
We covet all the status quo
This syringe will take a lifespan
It's filled with bait and tackle
Try and catch us if you can

@chasingom @guinsgirlreads @AprilMae @wanderinglynn How we doing team? Hope everyone had a great day. Got my workout in hope you all crushed it and if not there's tomorrow. #bfcr4

#bfcr4 @wanderinglynn @guinsgirlreads @ChasingOm @AprilMae

For this round of the BFCR my goals are as follows

4 days a week in the gym
2 solo Backcountry hikes
1 walk a day
4 books and two graphic novels
Take all my medication

We're going to rock the shit out of this

When she walks down the street
She knows there's people watching
The building fronts are just fronts
To hide the people watching her
She once fell through the street
Down the manhole in that bad way,
The underground drip
It's just like her scuba days

Let's go Dodgers. Reading is suspended to watch the boys in blue.

Happy Friday! Lovely people of Litsy rejoice in all its splendor. What are you reading this weekend? I'm reading the tagged book.

I am saved, I am saved
And oh, would you believe it?
All of the day
I felt his presence near me

I know they won't believe me, but
I've got favorite memories

I truly hope everyone has a great week, and remember, shit happens when you party naked and only Dwayne Hoover has free will.

Spent the weekend out in the middle of nowhere, hiking, relaxing and reading one of my favorite books. Did not see a soul as I was miles off trail. Had a great weekend hope you all are well. #thecatcherintherye @LibrarianRyan yes the catcher in the rye. #catcherhatersgonnahate #selfiesunday

This literally had me sobbing today. There's so much shame and guilt when you have a mental illness. By far the biggest is not how it affects me but how it affects the ones I love (Mia is my daughter). Feeling better than I have in years and hopeful that I can sustain it. I still get down often but not being suicidal on a daily basis brings a clarity that can't be explained unless you've gone or are going though it. Love to you all.

He had changed, it is true, and he found it difficult to understand what he himself had been.

Everything was very sad, all of life, all of life, empty behind him, dark before him. But such was life . Those who where happy were also blind.

Then pictures of his happy times came floating toward him, more and more in mist-like ranks. They rose in a sudden glamour round about him, they were so distant that they were gone before he knew what they were.

The only sadnesses that are dangerous and unhealthy are the ones that we carry around in public in order to drown them out with the noise; like diseases that are treated superficially and foolishly, they just withdraw and after a short interval break out again all the more terribly; and gather inside us and are life, are life that is unlived, rejected, lost, life that we can die of.

There was no style in nature. Nature was that which was unrestrained, that which was unspoiled. But with the fall of man civilization had come upon mankind. Now civilization had become a necessity but it would have been better, if it had not been thus.

Loneliness be over
When will this loneliness be over

Man I feel I've wasted the day, I was prescribed a new medication, and have slept for 15 hours since 12:01 today. Taking 10mg of Zyprexa stopped taking the Abilify, Lithium increased from 900mg to 1200mg. Still on gabapentin 900mg, Prestiq 200mg and Valproic acid 100mg . All this to say I feel I've wasted the day. I could have been reading. This defect is wearing me down. I am fighting but I'm losing. I want my life back.

Congratulations on hitting 100k!

The tagged is my favorite read of the year so far. I tag @TheSleepyCat . Litsy to me is a place I can be myself. I don't have to hide my battles with mental illness. I don't get judged. I don't have to wear a face like I do in the real world. I've met many kind, authentic souls.

@GrilledCheeseSamurai #sixdigitsamurai

Amén!

By the Power of Greyskull!

@Craftylikefox

Take you so much @Craftylikefox this really cheered me up. I love Motu! The books are awesome too. Sorry I forgot to open it sooner . Hugs 😊

@JoScho
#highfivetosummerswap

Break time!

Only Dwayne Hoover has freewill.

Having a very pleasant morning. Happy Labour day, remember why it was moved from May to September and be safe Florida and east coast littens.

Beautiful

Only fear, can make you feel lonely out here.

When the world has turned
Paralyzed and wrong
Cold blooded claws
Never offered anything at all
Past the point of love
Shattered and untied
Waiting to pick up the pieces
That make it all alright

But pieces of what?
Doesn't matter any more

So familiar and overwhelmingly warm
This one, this form I hold now

Embracing you, this reality here
This one, this form I hold now
So wide eyed and hopeful
Wide eyed and hopefully wild

We barely remember what came before this precious moment
Choosing to be here right now
Hold on, stay inside
This body holding me, reminding me that I am not alone
This body makes me feel eternal
All this pain is an illusion

Come on, little boy
You don't need to cry
You don't need to cry your eyes out
Come on, kid
Keep your head up and sigh
You don't need to understand
The reasons why, oh why, oh why, oh why

We are all divorced from life, we are all cripples, everyone of us, more or less. We are so divorced from it that we feel at once a sort of loathing for real life, and so cannot bear to be reminded of it.

Destroy my desires, eradicate my ideals, show me something better, and I will follow you.

Sometimes I feel so- I don‘t know - lonely. The kind of helpless feeling when everything you‘re used to has been ripped away. Like there‘s no more gravity, and I‘m left to drift in outer space with no idea where I‘m going‘
Like a little lost Sputnik?‘
I guess so.

I have a loving wife
I have loving children
I have loving parents
I have a loving brother
I have loving friends
I have loving acquaintances

But I am lonely
I am terribly lonely
I am disconnected from them
I am disconnected from myself
I live in my head
I serve no purpose
I long to be someone
I long to be dead

I know you won't believe me, but I've got favorite memories.