I chose this because I have a morbid streak. This wasn‘t quite what I thought it was going to be. The author rambles a lot about his early life traumas and why that led him to undertaking. There is a fair amount of talk of using illicit drugs as a sort of therapy, which is a little odd. I can‘t get behind some of the ideas presented. I would have liked a book more about the experiences he had than some of the more odd stuff.