It didn‘t bother him that he might be gay, but it bugged the hell out of him that he didn‘t know if he was. Shouldn‘t a grown man know these things about himself?

I've lost all ability to can after finishing this. Tender, empathetic, hot, kinky, brilliance.
For real.

Stunningly brilliant on all levels:
Smart, tight, intricate plot, well researched
A thoughtful discourse of how we deal with the other, and what ‘disabled‘ defines (or doesn‘t)
A poc protag whose gender is left up in the air (try both Benson & Wheaton audio), w/ a possibly lesbian or bi partner
Yes!

This one will stay with me for a long time. So. Much. Pain. But all that gravitas is cloaked in an opheliac beauty reminiscent of Rimbaud. Lush, vivid, richly detailed descriptions that engage all the senses.
Playlist: Nick Cave's Murder Ballads, Bruckner's 8th, and Björk's Dancer in the Dark -qed

What a perfect mindfuck. The end left me wanting (Seriously, WTF?), but I still liked it.