
I liked this and didn't like this, each for different reasons than I thought I would. Apologies for the lack of further unhinged updates but it ended up going in a less goofy direction than I expected. This is a long ass review, so for those looking for the TL:DR, I don't recommend you read the book.
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Okay, preconceptions:
1) Torrid romance with handsome robot standing in for hunky dude; if laughably bad in execution, all the better
2) If I'm lucky some interesting questions raised about robot existence
The reality: Yes and No on both points. 1mo
There is much that is overwrought about our heroine and her growing awareness of what seems at first an impossible love, but she's sixteen, an age I dimly remember leant itself to becoming overwrought, even before you factor in a societally unacceptable love interest. He's an artificial being in a form of slavery. Any relationship between them is purpose built to be “emotionally-charged“.
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Laughably bad in execution?
Tricky. I don't have a lot of patience for romances these days, so I'm less qualified to fairly judge, but just the fact that the author chose to go for something more heart-rending than an HEA kind of 1mo
Tabitha Lee is obviously a fan of descriptive writing using the full range of words for colours, inventive analogies and unusual adjectives. I think there are those who would call it people prose, but I 1mo
2) What takes up the greatest part of the story IS a discussion of free will, autonomy, whether you can overcome programming, but it's much more focused on an emancipated teenager than a robot.
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There are aspects here that reflect the standard romance format, the shy nerd takes off her glasses, let's her hair down, voila bombshell, or in less disparaging yet still trope-y tems, whatever she considers flaws, her lover is crazy about and she learns to love about herself, likewise the 'love of a good man' brings out her confidence and she's 1mo
What I don't usually see in romance is the distressly detailed deconstruction of why she was made to feel that way about herself. And the fact that it's not a makeover or body positivity that make her love her looks, it's abandoning her mother's plans for her appearance, and all of a sudden she's a platinum blonde supermodel (see below to add this particular caterpillar to butterfly transformation and its beauty st 1mo
Also on the problematic side, her lashing out at this good 'man' who loves her as she attempts to process an ocean of self-esteem issues that continually prevent her from seeing herself as worthy of love or attention. She can't believe Silver could love her or want to help her because she's not worth it, which is further complicated by accusing him of being incapable of doing any 1mo
Oh, and if the emotional blackmail/abuse of being certain she needed to not bother, but always please, her mother were not enough, she's also held financially hostage. Yes, in most sane households, a 16 year old is provided for by their parents, and any 16 year old who cannot stand to live with their family loses that financial support. 1mo
Regarding robotic free will:
I did love when we got hints that Silver, the human-like special format robot, was particularly special because he did have more physical expression and sensation, more emotional range, than others of his line, it's a slightly different angle on the speculation around the 1mo
Silver is designed to entertain by song with voice and guitar. 1mo
Outside his musical entertainment it's explicitly discussed that he'll also have sex, be an attentive lover, with whomever hired/rented him or later owns him. The contract stuff is a little messy to get into here, but Jane technically pays back the money and begs for him but doesn't own 1mo
The pressure to look a certain way, beauty standards which haunt Jane as she always feels inadequate next to her mother and her circle of friends, none of whom do anything to make her feel better.
She's overjoyed when shedding her mother's physical programming means her 'true' genetics emerge (edited) 1mo
It might be pure escapist fantasy but it's also inescapably harmful IRL. 1mo
Jane is embarrassed that she hasn't wanted to have sex with any of the men she's previously encountered, and occasionally refers to her 'maladjustment' for being 1mo
On a more positive note it could be argued it's the love and attention, the sharing of company and creativity and the more platonic physical affection between Jane and Silver that helps Jane gain a sense of self-worth. There's a lot more focus on Jane's insecurity about whether Silver can truly love her which is often specifically separated from his ability to make love to her, 1mo
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⚠️ emotional/psychological abuse, homophobia, suicide attempt 1mo